Me as a preteen

Can hardly see this cause was taken so very long time ago. Not sure who even took it.
 I wonder what color that dress was and what was hanging around my neck.   I didn't think I was a pretty child.  Always wanted to be pretty like my sisters. I was a very unhappy child growing up and even more so when I entered high school.  I felt selfconscious about a scar that was under my eye and  kids would ask where did you get that black eye? I was totally embarassed!  It hurt so much that I pretty much withdrew from making alot of friends. Was so happy when those teenage yrs. were over with and behind me. 

Once married I felt totally loved  and we started a family and life was good!  And then we hit the teen yrs. with our children and things got a little tough. Teenage yrs. are hard and even harder if you had no example growing up to help you out. I never saw by example from my parents just how to deal with things that pop up. I had nothing to fall back on  to help me in this new adventure of being a mom and wife ..  I went into marriage learning as I went along.  All I saw at home growing up was that adults fight and scream at each other and I knew I didn't want that for  my own family.  Having had no role model to learn from I think I did pretty good .... I did try the best I could!  The toughest part was  during those teenage yrs. when sometimes Joey and I weren't on the same page. I am sure it was hard for Joey....he grew up pretty much free to do what he wanted and his parents were good people and he had a happy childhood.   As for me it wasn't so.
 Anyway when our children needed to be disciplined  I was quick in wanting to let it go and keep the peace.  I never wanted there to be any confrontations!  I had seen it all my life growing up at home.  And yes it  caused some problems as our kids went into the teenage years for I would not confide in Joey but tryed to solve the problems without him.
Even so those early yrs. were wonderful and the best yrs. for both Joey and I.  When love is strong you can get through anything!  I had found someone who loved me and everyday was beautiful!  Having  small children whom I loved very much made life good and I was going to try and be the best wife and mommy there ever was! :)